9 December 2010

I went to the health center to get my nose examined today (brought extra paper with me in case it would start again – always prepared, right?). Mostly the doctor asked me questions about when my nose started bleeding, if I hit it somehow or if I know any other cause, how often and what do I do about it, and also if I bruise or bleed easily otherwise, if I have any allergies, or diseases in the family, and how I am feeling physically. I had already answered those exact questions when I called to book an appointment this morning, but like the “good” girl I am, I answered them again. Doc said that nosebleed can be caused by damaged or malformed blood vessels or… a blood disease. And also pointed out that I look, no offense, wan and worn, and wondered whether it is my normal look or of it is the nosebleed. I wasn’t sure, “both” I answered and laughed weakly.
I’m going back first thing tomorrow to run some tests. If it turns out to be a blood vessel problem, the doc said that they are going to burn some spot inside my nose, and just the thought of it…
But if it turns out to be a blood disease… I choose burning my nose, any day, every day. It sounds much more scarier. When I think blood disease, I think… well, you know, probably same things that you think, right? And isn’t that scary as heck?

One thing I am sure of, even long after my nosebleed stops, is that I’ll be having bloody nightmares for a very long time.
But hopefully not tonight, because I need to get much sleep before my grueling day tomorrow.
God, I probably have tons of homework piled up, too, don’t I? As soon is I have my nose under control, I will have it glued to Global Media Discourse and Inventing English to catch up. And I don’t even want to think about what else I am missing…

I’d better go to bed before I’ll get really… emotional, haha. Good night, all!
PS. Still haven’t cleaned my room or found my camera cord. La-Z.

Some days…

Some days you’ll find me less chatty than others. Whether it is because something has put me in that mood and I just don’t feel like talking about it that day or I simply woke up on the wrong side of the bed or I am too busy with schoolwork or anything else to write more than three sentences, I think I’ll always want to be in here, in my blog, expressing myself in one way or another. Those days I’ll mostly put up pictures here instead of words. I guess I’ve gotten used to this blogging thing.

Today is one of those days, but unfortunately my camera/PC cord is still M.I.A. so I will have to do with that, too. That is until I get myself up from this dangerously comfy sofa and go and seriously look for it. And I plan to do that… any minute now… or I’ll just do it tomorrow, it is getting late, isn’t it?
Haha, yeah, I know, excuses!

Anywho, goodnight, all.

7 December 2010

Hahaha! Look what I made…

Isn’t that just so me? You can make a South Park character of yourself over here.

True Blood

You know what I like the least about winter? Even more than all the snow  and the ice and the cold and the darkness? Nosebleed.
I was dragged into a another turn of it this morning and it was absolutely dreadfully horrible, it  always is. And it continues for at least fifteen minutes, which can’t be normal, can it?
But the worst part is not that I can’t stand the sight or smell of blood at all normally, but my imagination. Because when I see it just pouring down, almost like tap water running… All I can think about is what if it won’t stop this time? Or why, what is wrong with me? And something else which I will spare you from, because it is too sick. And when it’s over I keep expecting and waiting for the next turn and hope that it will happen when I am safe and sound at home and don’t have anything pretty around.
Maybe… Am I just overreacting? God knows, I hope so!

6 December 2010

Gahh, why is this happening? I said I can’t afford to miss another class so close to the exams, but how can I get on a train, be in school for hours and be so far away from home now? I shouldn’t, but all I can think of is how much I am missing. Daaarn this!

5 December 2010

Today is kind of like “Home Alone” for me, with me being home alone and all this continuing snowing, well, I guess except for the breaking-and-entering and the thieves, thank God. Those movies are always fun to watch in December, especially the third one, that one is my favorite. I remember when my brother and I were little and used to watch it whenever we were home sick. Good old days…

Instead of watching Home Alone today, I’ll be benched in front the TV reading and writing, but mostly waiting for the season premiere of Bones at 8pm on tv3! I’ve been waiting for it for weeks and weeks, and today I will finally know what happens when Bones, Booth and Hodgins and Angela come back home and what all of them have found on their trips… Woohoo!
Hm, how excited can you get about a TV-show? I should probably start going out more…No, never mind that, just look at this!

4 December 2010

You know it’s time to clean your room when you can’t find your camera/PC cord that you usually use every day. Where did it go? I’ve been looking for it for a half hour and trying to remember when I last held it, wasn’t it just this Tuesday or Wednesday even?
I went for a walk earlier and took a few pictures which I wanted to upload here, but that cord is nowhere to be seen. And now my room looks like a battlefield – again!
Spending a Saturday tidying up my room isn’t ideal for me, nor for anyone else I imagine, but I’ve brought this on myself so it’s not reasonable to sulk over it.
But first, I’m off  to eat a delicious dinner! And later I’ll have that cup of hot chocolate, I think…

Back To December

Guess what… it’s started snowing again. I get it, it’s December and winter and soon Christmas and all that, but enough already. People have to live and move on, get to work or school, but all this snow and the cold makes it so difficult. I hope it will ease off before Monday, because I can’t afford to miss another class this close to the exams. And also, I need to breathe, get a away from this tiny town for a few hours.

I’m not complaining, though, I like December. It’s cozy and and sparkling and nice and warm, at least when you’re sitting by the window covered in a quilt with a cup of hot chocolate in your hands and just take in and enjoy the view and the taste. Ah, that sounds wonderful! I think I’m gonna go to bed now, just so I will wake up sooner tomorrow and do just that!

3 December 2010

Today The Twilight Saga: Eclipse is released on DVD, and I have included it on my Wishing list. I haven’t seen the movie yet, but I’ve waited almost a year and won’t die of waiting 21 more days. I hope! Hopefully the limited box edition won’t be sold out before then… heck, who am I kidding, it’s probably already sold out by now.

Anywho, since I’m practically snowed in I thought I’ll make the best of my day indoors and clean the apartment. So I’m off to continue with that, but first…Here are two official The Twilight Saga: Eclipse trailers from ClevverTV on Youtube. Be still my beating heart, only 21 days to go.

2 December 2010

Good afternoon.  What a day. Or, days, even! If it won’t stop snowing soon I reckon I will get snowed in and won’t be able to step outside the apartment, much less then take the train out of town to get to class. Oh, haha! look at that! Now it stopped snowing… I wonder how long that will last.

So. December is here. And that means Eclipse DVD release, new season premiere of Bones, Narnia: The Voyage of the Dawn Treader  Christmas opening, and holidays, Christmas shopping, and… dum, dum, dum… Exams! Yikes.

But first, I’m gonna go and turn on all the sparkling lights and start on a yummy dinner! Catch ya later!